At Least I’m Moving Forward

I’m getting older, it’s becoming more clear everyday. I’m not going to rant about how I’m so old now and the young whippersnappers today don’t understand what life is all about, I will save all that for when I am senile. But I realized that adulthood isn’t something I am preparing for, it’s something I am living in now.

On Thursday night I hung out with a friend who I have not talked to all semester. It was nice to catch up and hear about her life and what was going on. Through the course of our conversation, I started to realize that a lot of what we were talking about was how people change, and not in a negative way, but we did talk a lot about how the people we know have grown up, and how it is interesting to sit in Starbucks about to start our sixth semester in college and look back at where we and our friends were when we were freshman. A lot has changed: people got jobs, got engaged or married, broke up, changed their major, moved away, no one stayed stagnant.

Now I am definitely not saying that I hate change, anyone who really knows me knows that I like change, partially cause I am pretty sure I am A.D.D. and partially because new things are interesting to me. When people change though (for good or for bad) it is totally different than moving to a new city or getting a new job. When people change you have to adjust the relationship, it can’t be the same as it was when you first met. I think sometimes people think that they aren’t changing and that no one else should to, or that when others do change it is for the worse, but I don’t agree with that. Change is natural, people are growing, lives are evolving, relationships change.

I guess looking back on the last 5 semesters I don’t know how much I have really changed, I would assume it would be a lot. But I don’t apologize for changing, and it doesn’t bother me that others are either. I am going to move on with my life, you can come with me or you can stay behind, but know that I am not going to be the same person I was yesterday, I can’t be, not if I am going to follow after what God has for my life. I am trying to take steps, the first of millions, to deliberately move toward where God wants me to be.  I am going to do what I have always done and accept the change in my life and in the lives of my friends, not try and fight it. I actually think it will be pretty cool to come back to UMHB in 20 years and talk with the people I graduated with, I am excited to see the change that will occur in that time, heck, I am excited to see the change that is going to happen between today and May 2009 when we leave this place.

I rather enjoy the idea of change, it’s exciting, sometimes scary, but overall it’s for the best, and I can’t wait for what tomorrow brings.